Merry Christmas! ~ What is your Christmas tradition, here we do coffee or cocoa and hot sticky buns.. It has been a busy month, and this year I didn’t bake the buns, but we have them, none the less. Struggle as I may I just can’t seem to find which box I packed my Christmas Spirit in… and talking to other people, they seem to have misplaced theirs as well. How are you doing this year?
This year is our second Christmas on the bluff….
Now I will sit quietly in the light of the Christmas tree, Watching “Meet me in St. Louis” (I’ma fool for old movies, especially with Judy Garland.) working on my deal blog, well because I enjoy it, and the quiet. ( Yes I probably should be sleeping but this quiet time of day is all mine,.. and Koda and Deuce’s )
Eventually, my wonderful hubby will roll out of bed. The kid, .. (she’s 21 this year, and still with us. Some days I want her to spread her wings, other days I’m glad she’s still here.) The “kid” will hopefully be up around 9 to do presents, I still bought her Christmas eve jammies ❤ (She looks like a big penguin this year)… Our house is growing empty and maybe that is part of why this Christmas is sad? My ultimate dream is to have the new house built and have ALL the kids come late on Christmas day, we eat dinner, open gifts, go night sledding, cocoa and a Christmas movie, to wake up together for a big family breakfast… Life is short and I want to really cherish all the Christmases I have left with them. My older kids will not be here today, and my heart hurts, because I miss them all so much… My son and his tribe spent Christmas Eve eve (the 23rd) with us; presents, food. It was such a blessing to have them here this year, last year they were all sick and couldn’t make it. We eventually opened presents, but after Christmas the magic seems to vanish. It’s loud when all those kids are in this small house, but I love it, and next year, we will be adding one more to the bunch Yes, I have another grand baby on the way and I couldn’t be more thrilled! Mom and dad are a little overwhelmed, but they take it in stride. And to make the gift even sweeter, she is due on my mother’s birthday in May.
My oldest two aren’t here either; the oldest is still mad at me; I am giving her space, and pray daily she will call, or walk through the door… You don’t think about them leaving when they are little, and when they finally do leave, you can’t wait for them to come back… sometimes they just don’t and as a parent it is heartbreaking. I’d give anything for them to walk through my door, and call out “Mom?”, but as they say, ” they have their own lives now.” As a mom, you always hope the person knocking on the door, or stopping by the shop is one of the kids. I love and cherish any time I get with them. Maybe they don’t see it, but I don’t get around like I used to, and I’m not as present as I want to be, but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t lasso the moon for them.
Later today, we will stop in on some family, and maybe go look at lights; that seems to help with resurrecting the Christmas spirit, sometimes. I’m looking forward to starting some sewing projects this coming week, and having the grand kids out this week for a whole day of fun.
So as we wake up to our 2023 Christmas, please remember… it isn’t about how many gifts are under the tree, or how big your tree even is… Especially when the kids are little… its about family…This year I get to spend it with my husband and our youngest,.. I grew up with tons of family around me and that’s dwindled a lot over the years..
So,.. make memories… bake cookies, make ornaments, make snow angels, sing songs, go look at the lights, and most of all… love each other 
In a world where you can be anything, be honest, be good, be grateful, be kind,
and be amazing!
Butterflies on the bluff 